Depression hasn’t taken over my wish to stay alive and hope the fun will give meaning and purpose to this so called life.
Failure has taken a toll, repeated failures. Time is teaching me , how to value what is ignored.
I am crying,you can’t see tears in my eyes but am crying.
Being alive feels good ,it does, to most of the people but not me.
A drag , yes time stretched beyond capacity to tolerate.
Each breath is heavy, meaningless , painful, filled with agony, anger, regret, tears .
GOD is great , punishment I deserve is assigned to me on earth. Paying a hefty amount , can’t afford but the bills are due, bills of sins.
Surviving is good. At least I won’t pay interest, don’t wanna carry over.Just pay it all and take a last deep breath.
It will be a complete bliss.